Black and White
When I looked at my list of words for todays post and saw Black and White as my topic I chucked to myself. Life is ironic in so many ways. Why you might ask, well black and white is an explanation of my last 2 days. They have been completely opposite of each other.
Coming back from Thanksgiving with all kinds of thoughts swirling in my head after being home for 5 days I felt great and was ready to take on the last 3 weeks of student teaching. I had been exhausted and a bit anxiety ridden but I put most of those feelings off to exhaustion and a few bad days but yesterday those feelings exploded into a flurry of anxiety and panic. It was one of those days when you wake up on the wrong side of the bed and just about everything through out the day just doesn't go they way you expect or want it to. I couldn't pull myself out of it and found it difficult to even perform small daily life tasks such as making a phone call. It was a rough day. When I got back to my room after my night class I felt really heavy and unable to carry the weight of my emotions and the day. I began talking to one of my best friends who is straight forward with me and honest about things, which is something I love most of the time and absolutely need sometimes. After my conversation with her I felt a bit lighter and had a glimmer of hope that today would be ready. As I left her room last night I kept repeating tomorrow will be a better and brighter day. And it was. Today I feel much better and feel empowered and capable of handling my anxieties and emotions. I was able to laugh off things that didn't go my way and move on with my day. Boy was today better then yesterday and makes me realize I need to keep my head held high and face life with passion and courage each day, no matter what comes my way.
This black and white day example is a great example of the ups and downs of the journey I am on with depression and anxiety. Some days are black, sad, lonely, and unbearable while other days are white with joy, perseverance, and courage. It is all part of this crazy thing called life. So today I have posted a black and white picture of flowers that I had in my room prior to leaving for thanksgiving. Flowers are such a simple pleasure and something that brings light into my life, they help me to see the 'white' days in life that are filled with joy, simplicity, and love. Black and white days happen to us all but its a matter of how we face those days and the reminders that we give to ourselves that good days will come, there is always light at the end of a dark tunnel. Keep hope and remember you are loved.
Coming back from Thanksgiving with all kinds of thoughts swirling in my head after being home for 5 days I felt great and was ready to take on the last 3 weeks of student teaching. I had been exhausted and a bit anxiety ridden but I put most of those feelings off to exhaustion and a few bad days but yesterday those feelings exploded into a flurry of anxiety and panic. It was one of those days when you wake up on the wrong side of the bed and just about everything through out the day just doesn't go they way you expect or want it to. I couldn't pull myself out of it and found it difficult to even perform small daily life tasks such as making a phone call. It was a rough day. When I got back to my room after my night class I felt really heavy and unable to carry the weight of my emotions and the day. I began talking to one of my best friends who is straight forward with me and honest about things, which is something I love most of the time and absolutely need sometimes. After my conversation with her I felt a bit lighter and had a glimmer of hope that today would be ready. As I left her room last night I kept repeating tomorrow will be a better and brighter day. And it was. Today I feel much better and feel empowered and capable of handling my anxieties and emotions. I was able to laugh off things that didn't go my way and move on with my day. Boy was today better then yesterday and makes me realize I need to keep my head held high and face life with passion and courage each day, no matter what comes my way.
This black and white day example is a great example of the ups and downs of the journey I am on with depression and anxiety. Some days are black, sad, lonely, and unbearable while other days are white with joy, perseverance, and courage. It is all part of this crazy thing called life. So today I have posted a black and white picture of flowers that I had in my room prior to leaving for thanksgiving. Flowers are such a simple pleasure and something that brings light into my life, they help me to see the 'white' days in life that are filled with joy, simplicity, and love. Black and white days happen to us all but its a matter of how we face those days and the reminders that we give to ourselves that good days will come, there is always light at the end of a dark tunnel. Keep hope and remember you are loved.
Until tomorrow....
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