I'm confused and you know what that's okay. I don't need to have it all figured out and I don't need to have it all together because lets be honest who really does have it all together. I find myself at a cross roads; a crossroads that could change the very path my life is on and divert me in a completely opposite direction of how I've planned it to be. I'm oddly okay with that which is probably the most mind blowing part for me. I'm okay with the diversions. I'm okay with the uncomfortable because something is oddly comfortable about the uncomfortable for me right now. This past summer I was beyond blessed to have the opportunity to work with an amazing team of people in writing and organizing a week of Christian peace education at my church. A week that was filled with so much love, unity, and community. Ever since that week my life has been changed forever. That week made me suddenly become aware of my need to learn mor...
September is suicide prevention month. A month that is near and dear to me for so many reasons. I have been on both sides of suicide. I have been on the side of being left behind and on the side of feeling my life was no longer worth living. Every year as September rolls around I find myself reflecting and rebuilding. Reflecting on the experiences that have so deeply impacting me and formed who I am and rebuilding into the person I can be; the person I was made to me. Each year a variety of organizations supporting suicide awareness, depression, anxiety, addiction, and mental health put out campaigns to provide awareness and recovery. Each year I look forward to reading the inspiring message these organizations share and the responses of those who are willing to share of themselves and their experiences with mental health. This year I have gravitated towards To Write Love on Her Arms message. The message to Stay. Find what you were made for. A message...
I have been absent from writing for the last few days, tis part of the battle with depression and anxiety. The last week or so has been difficult for me emotionally, physically, and mentally. I have been faced with many anxiety attacks and new symptoms of my never ending journey. Some of these things have been induced by outside stresses and concerns while others have been there for awhile and now at this point in the process can be addressed. Its finding balance in moving forward and pushing myself to work through the hard stuff but at the same time taking time for myself and being healthy. So as part of my being healthy part of the balance I stepped away from the blog for a few days to regroup and process. I have posted for the last few days below. Enjoy. Saturday Dec. 5- Jingle Who ever thought that Christmas music would put me of all people at ease. For many years I have struggl...
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