Breathing Hope!

I found this poem and It really hit me because I have been hiding under a mask for many years and portraying myself as a different person the who I really am! The Mask by Wolfgirl A mask of plastic happiness often covers her sadness Her beliefs hidden from most Afraid of, but willing to face the unknown Wondering where her place is in this life She has come close to sharing herself Never completely revealing anything to anyone Feelings of invisible chains corner her When she dreams, reality shatters before her very eyes Accomplishments she strives for just at hands grasp She feels lost sometimes, not yet finding her notch in this world At times the glimmer in her calm eyes slowly disappears But within her heart a silent flame burns her inside and out She roams day by day, playing roles Strength unknowingly resides in her History repeats itself once again The translucent veil she so proudly wears Little by little answers will come, pushing it aside One day there will be no more mask f...

Today I realized I need to start enjoying the simple things in life. The simple things bring happiness and make life enjoyable. Here are some of the Simple things in my life that I love! The Simple things are the best thing in my life and provide me with simple happiness instead of things being complicated. The Simple things are important! Enjoy them! The Good Morning I get from my parents when I wake up The Smile on my Dad's face when I throw a Good Game The hug I get from my parents when I make them Proud The Jokes my dad makes at dinner A fresh spring morning when the dew is on the ground The sad puppy dog face my dog gives me when He wants attention Spending time with my friends Spending time with my Family Playing my flute A bright Sunny Morning

“How you think about a problem is more important than the problem itself. So always think positively.” - NORMAN VINCENT PEALE   I use to look at the problems in my life as if they were a big ugly mountain that I had to face and climb over. For me the big ugly mountains scared me and brought up negative feelings. My dad having alpha for me has been a "problem" that I felt I couldn't face and deal with. It has brought up negative feelings and worries that aren't necessary. I need to use the time that I have left with my dad to make as many memories as possible. I need to look at things in a positive light. Each minute and day I have with my dad is another memory that I can create and another chance I have to have a great time with him! Every Problem I have needs to be looked at as something that could change my life Positively and make my life better for having gone through it. I need to take my problems and life lightly otherwise it will drag me down. Positivity is ...

My Friend Kate Told me to listen to this song today and reminded me that I need to remember this! I have the greatest friends and support system in the world. I can't Believe how much all my friends have surrounded me and want to help me. Some things they have honestly shared with me and that was kind of hard for me but I am beginning to realize they are being honest with me because they are my friends and want me to feel better and care about me. This song definitely brightened my day and reminded me of some important things.  To all my friends I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday I honestly shared with Everyone what has been going on in my life. It is far from perfect. I sometimes feel like I need to make the world think my life is perfect and think that I live a life with no problems. I'm going to be honest my life can be a nightmare sometimes and can have so many problems I feel like I can't handle . There are days when I want to pinch myself hoping that this is only a dream and I will wake up and everything will be ok again. I need to be willing to accept that this is my life and that I have no control over what occurs in my life besides what kind of attitude I live my life with. A positive attitude will make life so much more enjoyable for me and the people around me. This will help me to have hope and faith and believe that each day can be better then the last. Each day is a Gift and although it took me a long time to realize it is a freeing feeling when you have that revolation. I still have not "fixed" everything in my life an...

Lately I have been deeply struggling with many issues in my life including the fact that my family is affected by Alpha-1! Its hard for me to accept at moments that this is my life now. A life I can not plan out or control and A life that is completely unpredictable. Each moment seems to bring a new challenge and often becomes more stressful. I have had a very hard time letting go of control and still haven't let go! I find myself wanting to plan every moment out as though it will turn out that way then when something doesn't go as "planned" I get disappointed and upset. Dealing with this has been a huge struggle for me and at this point in my life has been one of the most painful and dark periods I have ever experienced. I'm struggling to find out who I am in all this and what path I am suppose to be going on. Through out my life I have been deeply influenced by others and haven't always made decisions because I wanted to do something but because I felt I nee...

Day 24- A Letter to Your Parents Mom and Dad, I don't even know where to begin you both are my best friends in the whole world and the people I know I can always count on to be there for me when I need it most! You guys have been there for me through so much and continue to amaze me every day by being the best people ever! I look up to both of you as role models and hope to do just as well as both of you have in life. You are both loving caring people who show me the most support and love anyone could ever receive. When I am going through a rough patch you guys are always the ones sitting there ready to listen and help to solve the problem. When I have done something wrong you help me to correct it and become a better person and learn from my mistakes. No matter what the case you guys are always there. I thank you guys so much for everything that you do for me and everything that you have helped me through. I love you guys so much and you are the most amazing people I know! Love y...