My Mask

I found this poem and It really hit me because I have been hiding under a mask for many years and portraying myself as a different person the who I really am!

The Mask
by Wolfgirl

A mask of plastic happiness often covers her sadness
Her beliefs hidden from most
Afraid of, but willing to face the unknown
Wondering where her place is in this life
She has come close to sharing herself
Never completely revealing anything to anyone
Feelings of invisible chains corner her
When she dreams, reality shatters before her very eyes
Accomplishments she strives for just at hands grasp
She feels lost sometimes, not yet finding her notch in this world
At times the glimmer in her calm eyes slowly disappears
But within her heart a silent flame burns her inside and out
She roams day by day, playing roles
Strength unknowingly resides in her
History repeats itself once again
The translucent veil she so proudly wears
Little by little answers will come, pushing it aside
One day there will be no more mask for her to wear
One day her beliefs will be known
One day she'll know her place in this life
One day she will share herself
ONE DAY this mask will be NO MORE
For all of my life I have lived with a mask. Scared to show who I really am and scared to find my place in the world. I have felt like if I really showed myself no one would understand or accept who I am ,but now I know that the only way I am going to find my way in this world is by taking the mask off and showing everyone my life is not a piece of cake like I try to make it appear. There are days when it is painful and hard and I don't think I can live my life anymore. I hide behind this mask of perfection and happiness when I really am in pain and have no idea where I am being lead to next. My life is not perfect and my life can be painfully rough. I have struggled with many things in my life that have hurt me deeply. I have been shoved down into the ground by gruel people but that is the world and I need to realize being me is the only way to over come the fear that gruel people put me in. I may not be the skinniest or the prettiest person but I am beautiful inside and that is much more important then if I am beautiful on the outside. I am who I am and no one can tell me that is wrong because being me means there is no right and wrong. I want people to love me for me and who I really am. I am a strong girl although it does not always seem it and I can make it through anything I put my mind to. I am taking my mask off and showing who I am.
 
Who I am
By: Amanda Koenig
 
I am the girl with the black crazy curly hair with brown eyes that is not a size 0 in jeans.
 I am the girl who is determined and motivated to be the best person I can be.
I am the girl who will not let depression take over my life.  
I am the girl who has had a troubled past.
I am the girl who has been bullied and lied to.
I am the girl who is going to overcome people who put me down.
I am the girl who is strong and wouldn't let other people put me into the ground.
I am the Girl who cares about my family with all my heart and will stand up for them no matter what it takes.
I am the Girl who has a father that suffers from alpha-1.
I am the Girl who believes in Christ and loves him with all my heart.
I am the girl who playing music is a release.
I am the girl who loves to create music and Art.
I am the girl who is a Girl Scout and a Leader for 12 years.
I am the girl who played softball and let it rule my life for many years.
I am the girl who is an activist for PEACE.
I am the girl who loves working with kids and teaching them to be better people.
I am the girl who loves my friends and trust them with everything.
I am the girl that cares for people and doesn't want to see anyone hurt.
I am the girl who loves me for me!
 
 

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