Breathing Hope!

I can't believe tomorrow starts my last year at Pennridge. I feel like I hardly remember my life with out pennridge. I remember the first day of my freshman year of high school Mr.Creedan telling all of us that before we knew it we would be seniors and we all rolled our eyes and believed that day was so far away we didn't even have to think about it.... but here we are. We are seniors. Part of me is super excited its senior year and we are almost done but there is another part of me that is sad and almost scared, what is going to happen when all this is over, I guess it is just a fear of the unknown. I feel like my whole life is made up of unknowns. Each of us have unknowns in our lives and each day presents something we most definitely were not expecting. I know for me every day is almost scary for me. With my Dad being sick you never seem to know when something new might pop up or something could drastically change in an instant. Unknowns are scary for me and it is really har...

Summer has flown by so quickly! I have been busy with Band camp and preparing for my Senior year. Last weekend my Church Youth Group and I went down to Philadelphia to feed the homeless. It was a great experience and humbled us a lot. We got to walk the streets of Philly handing out sandwiches to the homeless people along the streets with Bruce who use to be homeless and knows where people go and who most of them are. He shows us the way around and helps us to hand out sandwiches. He is a real inspiration. Then Monday came and it was time for Band Camp to begin. School will start this coming Monday and Summer will be over. I can't believe how fast summer went! The whole Group before we Walked the Streets of Philly The Marching Band playing the National Anthem at a Football Game Last Year

The summer has been going by so quickly! I have been doing a variety of things. For a week I was in Atlanta, Georgia to spend some time with my cousin and her family. I had a great time playing with her kids and going to see the aquarium, world of coke, and having a spa day with my Aunt and 2 cousins. My Cousin Suzy's kids are adorable. they are so much fun to play with and interact with. Holly and I worked on "projects" throughout the week and Ty is so full of energy. We went swimming two of the days and Ty is not afraid of the water that is for sure. I had a fabulous time and can't wait to see them again. When the time came to come home I was very sad I wished I could stay longer. My summer has been full of excitement. This past weekend we had a baby shower for my cousin and my cousin Damien's first birthday! It was a great time with family. During the summer I try to keep myself busy, it helps me to get out of the house so I am not constantly reminded of the th...

This past weekend my family traveled to western PA. I was going on a college visit and we decided instead of just making it a college visit we would make a small vacation out of it. We went to the flight 93 memorial which was very moving, to see the field where the passengers of the plane had crashed was very emotional. We then went to another memorial up the road that was dedicated to the crew. It was a beautiful garden and monument. There was also a chapel and bell to memorialize them. There was a cut out of steel from the world trade center that was given to the memorial in 2006. The steal sculptor made out of it was very neat. We then went to see Frank Lloyd Wrights falling water. This is an architectural master piece. The way wright brought the nature into the home was incredible. Over all the trip was very exciting and as you can see there are some pictures posted below!

I am scared, I don't know what the next step is. I don't know when things are going to get worst but I know that you aren't going to get better and it scares me. I feel like it can't get any worst. I am scared of losing you, I don't want to loss you, you are my Daddy, and I am you little girl and what will I ever do with out my daddy? I am not scared to admit every time there is a doctors appointment I am scared, I worry, and I don't know what to do. I just wish I could make it all better and all go away, for you , for everyone. I have found over time that being scared is not a sign of being weak, it is a natural feeling and if  I wasn't scared I think I would be worried why I wasn't. Alpha has changed my life forever. It has made me fear so much, fearing loss, and sickness. I am scared everyday. People tell me to just enjoy the time I have which I try my best to do but that's extremely hard when there is so much stress surrounding the situation. It ...

I can't believe the first week of summer is over! I did alot this week! I feel like I fit enough for a whole month into the week. Of course I spent some time with my parents. My dad and I watched plenty of phillies games this week as we always do and we are starting to get use to being home together all the time which trust me took some getting use to. Last Sunday was fathers day and I am so thankful to have such a great Dad who goes through so much but still will do anything for me. I can't ask for more then that. Sunday evening my mom and I went to the opening concert of Glenwood Avenue Music which is a new music school my flute teacher is opening! The concert was great!!! Then on Monday I helped my friend Laura with a project and had flute lessons. It was a pretty laid back day. Tuesday I relaxed and just chilled out at home. It was much needed! Wednesday I went to crafts with my grandmother which I do on wednesdays in the summer. My grandmother is part of a group of older w...

I have not written in  a couple of weeks. I was going crazy! The end of the school year is always an extremly busy time for me and prevents me from having much time with out my noise in a text book or completing a project. Now that the school year is over a lot of stress has been taken away and the craziness has disappered for a little while. Summer for me is always 8 weeks to chill out, the rest of the year I am going crazy from place to place and never get a chance to get some air. Summer is also a time now that my Dad can no longer work to spend some quality time with him and get to create some memories with out taking a big trip or going on some sort of adventure. We create the memories and laughs at home right in our living room, often times it occurs in front of the TV when we are watching the Phillies who are my Dad and my favorite team. We get a chance through watching the phillies to share time together and enjoy watching the game together. My entire life the Phillies will...