Being Honest with Myself
Learning to be okay with the never ending twists and turns of grief is challenging. It is a challenge I have successfully avoided for nearly six months. This past week I have taken another step in my twists and turns of grief. For the last five months I have dove deep into my work and other activities. I have made sure to keep myself busy, overworked, and unaware of how I actually was feeling. I wouldn't allow myself to relax or slow down because that just meant I would experience emotions and heartache that I was not yet willing to face. That meant I would have to acknowledge that what all happened in January was real. I would have to accept that I no longer had my two wonderful grandfathers and that a piece of me went with them. This last week however school ended, leaving me with time and a much less stressful environment. The moment I left ...