Breathing Hope!

       This weekend was Valley Fest here at LVC. Valley Fest is a weekend filled with musical performances, food, vendors, activities, and a spring festival type atmosphere. I over my four years here have always loved Valley Fest. There is something about a spring festival after the winter months that enlivens me and helps me to feel like spring has finally arrived. This year was no different in that regard but vastly different in others.      I have always been somewhat cautious in the way I live. Taking the safe route, planning, re-planning, and researching before making any decisions or life choices. Especially after my 'enlightenment' 5 years ago I have planned and prepared for everything, partly due to the fear of public anxiety attacks or panic and the struggle I have trusting myself and those around me. I always had to have a planned exit and routine so when things became overwhelming and difficult for me I could leave the situation or de...

        As I shared almost a month ago with all of you my life is rather busy and to some degree in a surge of chaos between making it through my last 24 days of under grad, graduating, job searching, moving, among many other obligations and life changing events that will occur over the next 4 or so months. I have been stressing a lot about all of the 'things' I need to accomplish in the next few months and trying to come up with a plan 'a' through 'z' for each event/moment. All of this planning along with trying to live my daily life has been causing a lot of anxiety and stress that honestly is self created by allowing my head to jump ahead months in advance while all I really need to worry about is the current. Taking each step moment by moment.        Over the last two months or so one of my best friends and I have been talking a lot about all of these life changing events we will be going through in the next 4 months, some together and s...